Wednesday

I caved yesterday.

Yes, after my rather self-satisfied post of the other day, where I said that food seemed to have lost its power over me, I found myself in a restaurant yesterday, consciously and deliberately choosing to overeat.

We went to a barbecue place.  In my defense, I should say that I actually did look ahead of time at thedailyplate.com (despite their occasional misinformation) to see what healthy options I could find.  But thedailyplate didn’t have any info for this particular restaurant (it is a chain but has only a limited presence in just a few states).  I ate some steamed broccoli and some grapefruit for a quick snack before we left, figuring that it would help to dull my appetite so I wouldn’t cave into temptation.

By the time we sat down to eat, though, I was in one of those moods where I didn’t care so much.  My mom was very jovial, and I was carried along by wanting to join in the festivities.  She particularly enjoyed the cornbread cheese muffins served at this place, and as she raved about them, I found myself thinking they were especially good.  So I had two.  (They were small…almost like mini muffins…but still.  Two??) 

When our server came around to take our order, I did ask if I could order from the kids’ menu.  I saw a look pass over her face, total scorn and disgust.  I think she thought I was trying to minimize our bill and therefore her tip.  She told me I could not order from the children’s menu, and as everybody looked at me expectantly, I suddenly caved and ordered a full dinner - complete with mashed potatoes and cole slaw as sides.

When our food arrived, I found myself eating the entire thing.  Quite honestly, the portions weren’t that huge, although there was more turkey on my plate than I had seen in a long time.  But I ate every last bit of everything.  Afterward, I didn’t even feel that bad, although I was fuller than I’d been in ages.

I’m sure I’ve gained some.  I’ve never seen the scale numbers back around 172 - I’ve been hovering in the 174 range for the past week.  I’m going to go work out and recommit myself to this thing.